On this day in 2013 our phone rang around two-thirty in the morning notifying us that our daughter, Kelsey had been in a serious car accident, was being air-lifted to a trauma hospital in Houston and we should come right away. As Tom was gathering details from the highway patrol officer I found myself downstairs, circling my living room in the most desperate, frantic prayer I’d ever prayed before, asking God to please, please just let her live, or at least make it until one of us could get to her….and His three very distinct and calm words spoken clearly to my heart, “I’ve got her.”
And He did….
But it’s been a hard journey, ya’ll… we faced that year as a family of four, and the next year we were only three with the loss of our son and Kelsey’s brother….it’s still so hard to believe sometimes. So there’s a lot of “stuff” packed into this one little date each year; March 14th isn’t ever easy. So the question I’ve been wondering all day is this…. for the first time in seven years, why didn’t I wake up between two and three this morning?
Maybe it’s because just last month Kelsey married her best friend and I know she has a lifetime of love and adventure ahead of her. =) But maybe it’s also because those three words that God so clearly spoke as I circled my living room in desperate prayer on March 14th, 2013 still hold true today. Maybe, though there will always be a measure of pain and loss associated with this day, God’s still saying to my momma’s heart, “I’ve got her” and maybe, just maybe having my body not recall that moment seven years ago by jolting me awake is a sign of letting go….
Letting go isn’t easy….but God understands all the things our hearts can’t even find words to express. We just need to be willing to open our hands and let go of the hurts, the disappointments, and the broken pieces in order for God to fill them with healing, hope and purpose. It’s ok if it takes some time….I promise He is with you in the process. He is truly faithful to be with us not where we think we should be, but right where we are, and all along the way toward wholeness.
Praying for you, dear friends, as we walk these days together, struggling with the hard things and sharing in the joys as well. We are never alone!
Love,
Shellie ♥
Never Once
Looking just how far we’ve come
Knowing that for every step
You were with us
Seeing just how much You’ve done
Knowing every victory
Was Your power in us
But with joy our hearts can say
Yes, our hearts can say
Never once did You leave us on our own
You are faithful, God, You are faithful
Seeing just how much You’ve done
Knowing every victory
Was Your power in us
But with joy our hearts can say
Yes, our hearts can say
Never once did You leave us on our own
You are faithful, God, You are faithful
You are faithful, God, You are faithful
But with joy our hearts can say
Never once did we ever walk alone
Carried by Your constant grace
Held within Your perfect peace
Never once, no, we never walk alone
Never once did You leave us on our own
You are faithful, God, You are faithful
Evermore we’ll be breathing out Your praise
You are faithful, God, You are faithful
You are faithful, God, You are faithful
You are faithful, God, You are faithful
Your are, You are faithful, God, You are faithful
Songwriters: Jason Ingram / Matt Redman / Tim Wanstall
Never Once lyrics © Spirit Music Group, BMG Rights Management