Day 11 ~ It’s OK

 

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Did you know that you can set almost any song as an alarm on your phone?! Probably, because I seem to be the last kid on the block to know these things, but it’s a new discovery that I’ve been having some fun with. (And my husband has been patiently tolerating!)

A while back I was having a particularly difficult time seeing my way through the fog that seems to regularly drift in and out of my mind/spirit/heart these days, but this time it was staying low and being slow to lift and blow away. Much like a low-grade fever leaves you feeling not really sick, but kind of “blah”, I was discouraged with feeling discouraged and ready to feel better already! Ever been there?

Being a person who wears feelings on her feelings, I’m aware that sometimes it takes a word of truth to cut through all the emotions that can sometimes guide my thinking. Two things happened to speak that truth into the fog that I’d like to leave with you on Day 11.

IMG_5265I was reminded of the many, many passages of scripture where people are being comforted – from Genesis to Revelation – people being reminded that they aren’t alone, that God sees their heartache and not a tear falls that He doesn’t care about. Jesus was always noticing and tending to the needs of the people around him, both physical and emotional. And instead of this feeling like a company to my misery, it actually brings me great comfort to know these human hearts that can hold so much love, joy, happiness, optimism, and faith are also just as prone to feel grief, loss, longing and disappointment as well as……the very same faith.

Around the same time, I heard this song and it reminded me that I don’t have to wait for everything to be ok before I’m ok. What a concept! And it’s truth.

In some ways, my faith is stronger today than it’s ever been, even though I rarely feel like it. But it’s just something I know. Even when the fog comes in, I always know that I’m ok, and that really does make all the difference!

Because much of what I write comes from my own journey of grief and healing, so many of you who have found this little Lenten blog are going through similar seasons. So I want you to know something at the close of this day…..you don’t have to wait until you feel ok to be ok. It’s what I’m learning day by day – let’s learn it together.

PS I turned this song into one of my morning alarms. Waking up to “maybe it’s ok if I’m not ok” actually makes me laugh….and then start singing. I’m pretty sure Tom loves it too. =)

Love,

Shellie♥

Maybe It’s OK
We Are Messengers
If I didn’t know what it hurt like to be broken
Then how would I know what it feels like to be whole
If I didn’t know what it cuts like to be rejected
Then I wouldn’t know the joy of coming homeMaybe it’s ok if I’m not ok
‘Cause the One who holds the world is holding onto me
Maybe it’s alright if I’m not alright
‘Cause the One who holds the stars is holding my whole lifeIf I didn’t know what it looked like to be dirty
Then I wouldn’t know what it feels like to be clean
And if all of my shame hadn’t drove me to hide in the shadows
Then I wouldn’t know the beauty of being freeMaybe it’s ok if I’m not ok
‘Cause the One who holds the world is holding onto me
Maybe it’s alright if I’m not alright
‘Cause the One who holds the stars is holding my whole lifeFather, let Your kingdom come
Let Your will be done
Here in my heart as in heaven
Father, let Your kingdom come
Let Your will be done
Here in my heart as in heaven, ohMaybe it’s ok if I’m not ok
‘Cause the One who holds the world is holding onto me
Maybe it’s alright if I’m not alright
‘Cause the One who holds the stars is holding my whole lifeNow I’m alive in You
I’m bursting at the seams
Now I’m alive and I see You in everythingMaybe it’s ok if I’m not ok
Writer(s): Darren Mulligan, Jonathan Smith and Bryan Fowler

About Shellie

Welcome ~ I am a mom, a wife, a friend, a sister, a daughter, a dreamer and a writer. But most of all I am a woman of faith - I have a deep longing to know and love....God.
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2 Responses to Day 11 ~ It’s OK

  1. Anonymous says:

    Perfect song as usual. It is good to know that not bring ok is ok.

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